Detached..

Everyone of us have our emotional baggage that we carry with us.. 

I know I'm detached from almost everyone else, my beloved friends, family and loves..

I could barely spend efforts into reading messages, i could barely spend energy browsing through social media, I could barely drag myself out to meet up with you guys.. I do not bother what's happening anymore..

I still love you guys a lot.. believe me, I really wished I'm there spending time with you guys but I couldnt.. (except if you're asking me out for physical activities..)

Perhaps this is just one of the moments in life when I felt really overwhelmed.. 

Coz there are just days or weeks or months when I really needed time for myself to figure out things in my own pace and space..

Dont ask me whats happening but just gimme the time and space which I needed badly..

Chapter Thirty...

it's been years since the last time i blogged..

reading back some of the posts..

it makes me realized how much i have not changed!

i'm still the same same person..

i guess we dont change..

or was it just..me being stagnant?

i still felt lost in chapter thirty..

as we aged, we feel more and more tension forcing us to settle down in life..

coz we have aged..

but i still do not know where am i supposed to go next..

to stay or to leave..

can i stay and chase after my dreams?

would i feel happier if i leave?

i wanted to stay.. but...

and there's always but...

sometimes i wished im far far far away..

perhaps i would hesitate less..

chapter thirty..

please make it a meaningful ones..

always choose what makes you feel alive!